Monday, May 14, 2012

Getting Healthy at 40

Ain't that the truth? But I'm gonna try!
Well it happened. It finally happened. I turned 40 on Friday as I mentioned last week. I had a truly wonderful day thanks to my husband planning a treasure hunt to my gift, a fantastic dinner at a nice local restaurant that had terrific live jazz and then drinks (only 1 glass of wine for me due to my meds) at The Hyatt (fan-cy!).

Aside from that I received dozens of happy birthday wishes on Facebook and Twitter from friends and family which was really nice and just added to the lovely day. Things like that put a smile on my face and remind me that I have great friends and family, so thank you for that.

Since it was a milestone birthday, I allowed myself the weekend to sort of splurge. I had chocolate cake after dinner on Friday for example. I figured that 40 was a great time to really take charge of my life and start caring about myself more than I had been. I didn't realize that I disliked myself as much as I did until I did some soul searching this weekend. I mean, I have qualities that I like such as a good sense of humor, caring for others and a talent for writing and singing. But I also thought to myself too many times that I am wrinkled and ugly and fat. What a shitty way to perceive yourself right?

Not THAT bad for 40 am I? 
I can't do much about the wrinkles, but I'll apply as much cream as I can to help minimize those damn lines. Ugly? Probably not. I think I associate my being overweight with my being ugly. That's not fair is it? There are lots of people that are overweight that I don't think are unattractive, so why am I so hard on myself? It's ridiculous and I need to work on my perception of myself when I look in the mirror. Fat? Well, that's what I'm here for! Now that I'm 40, no more excuses! I've got to get serious about losing weight. Not because I want to fit in a size 6 or be more beautiful on the outside, but because I want to be healthy.

So I need your help, folks. Help me keep on track by reminding me of this post. Use my own words against me if need be! See, I have a terrible fear of dying ever since a health scare (one of many), so I want to make sure that I am doing everything I can to be healthy. I can't fix my CRPS, carpal tunnel syndrome, arthritis, migraines or blood disorder, but I can fix my blood pressure by losing weight can't I? Maybe one day I'll be able to stop taking blood pressure medications even.

One day that will be me smiling at the number on the scale!
The point of this rambling post is that I want and need to be the healthiest me I can be. I don't want to die before my time, so it's up to me to turn some things around. I'm fortunate to have the gift of writing for this blog and that means I'm held responsible by all of you. I don't want to disappoint you and more than that I don't want to disappoint myself.


  1. Forty is still young. :)

    And I happen to think that's a gorgeous picture of you. Being overweight doesn't mean ugly. It's far too easy to focus on the flaws when we look in the mirror... sometimes to the extent that we don't even realize how others perceive us.

    To me, you look like someone who is bubbling over with life and personality and fun. And I'll be beaming along with you as you get more healthy. :)

  2. WHAT wrinkles! You could easily pass for late 20's.

  3. This lovely lady is turning 50 so she thinks 40 is still a young
    I don't think you look 40 I would have guessed maybe 30.........

  4. I said it before and I'll say it again, you don't look close to 40.

    I also don't think being overweight necessarily equals being ugly. Curves are never really a bad thing. However the need to get healthy, that I do understand and that's a great thing to aspire to!

  5. 1st Happy Birthday! Reaching 40 and still sane in today's world is great. 2nd What wrinkles? Come on, you have got to be kidding. You look flawless. I'm on the same get healthy journey so I applaud all your efforts current and those to come.

  6. You look fabulous! And I swear I have MORE wrinkles since losing weight because there's nothing to plump up my face and help smooth them out.

    So, what is one small change you've made towards your goal of being healthier? What's the hardest change for you to make?