Wednesday, April 25, 2012

I've been ignoring the scale..

...pretty much since I last wrote about breaking up with the scale. That was what, two weeks ago? I hopped on the scale this morning and I was up maybe one pound since I last weighed myself, which all in all is not too bad I think. The jeans I recently moved into the "wear" drawer are still fitting.

I've been paying attention to how my body actually looks when I go to my kickboxing class and I think I am still slimming to some extent. I've just been thinking that I'm really not that uncomfortable with the size I am at currently. My reasons stem more from the fact that I had put some of the initial 65 that I had lost back in the day and I am scared shitless of gaining it all back. And that I just kind of want my clothes to fit. That, I am getting closer to. But I feel happier when I'm not constantly thinking about everything I eat.

There are still things I need to do, however.

  • Keep active. I can't slack on that shit. The more active I keep, the less I will have to think about food all the damn time.
  • Keep cognizant of my reasons for eating. Make sure when I eat it's because I'm hungry, not because I'm bored or sad or pissed off.
  • Recognize my hunger signals and recognize when I am full. Let go of the idea that I must clean my plate Every Time.
  • Keep trying to make better choices. Don't neglect my fruits and veggies. Meal plan and such. 
  • Make sure when I eat it's worth it.. As the line in Ratatouille goes "I don't like food, I love food and if I don't love it, I don't swallow." which essentially means if I'm going to have treats on occasion, make them good treats, not processed crap. 
These are things I can do to make sure I don't fall back into really bad old habits.

But as far as the weighing and the tracking and the self-flagellating every damn time I have a cookie (or a Lemon Poppyseed Muffin from Timmie's... Holy crap, crack in delicious fluffy yellow form) I'm just not sure I can do it anymore.

5 comments:

  1. Self-flagellating really doesn't do much good anyway. If you're going to give up something, that's a good choice. Sounds like you're finding a good perspective. :)

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  2. I'm glad to hear you're comfortable with yourself. Also, the self-flaggellating thing- you should never do that to yourself anyways- so I'm glad you've stopped doing that.

    You're doing awesome- and that's great!

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  3. I'm bad about self-flagellating myself, so I get that, but it's certainly not a good practice. Your list is something I think everyone should pay attention to, I know I should. I'm so proud of you and how much progress you've made. Mwah!

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  4. "make them good treats, not processed crap."

    uh, yeah, that is how I gained 20 pounds on my semester in France. Great strategy in theory, not so great when handmade profiteroles and eclairs are staring you down.

    best,
    MOV

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    1. Well the idea is still to keep moderation in mind.. but if I'm going to treat myself I'd rather have a really amazing fresh-made bakery donut and have it be totally worth it, than have a crappy Tim Hortons donut and find myself going 'Ugh.. did I even really enjoy that?'

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